I'm kind of a new user, since I registered a year ago or so but I've never posted a lot since. I'm a 22 years old girl from Italy, with a passion for diapers.
But I could even say my relationship to them is a little more complicated than that. I've always liked diapers: I remember wanting to wear them even when I was 10 years old. I once took one of my cousin's and tried to put it on, incredibly it fit me!
But things have become a little more complicated with time. There was a period, when I was in high school, when I used a pacifier. I remember bringing it everywhere with me and keeping it in my school bag.
Two or three years ago I started buying myself diapers: I've always worn Tena up to now, even if it's not easy to find very absorbent diapers in supermarkets (in Italy, where I live, only Tena Pants Plus or Discreet are available in the stores). I also remember the first time I entered a pharmacy to ask for a package of Tena Pants Maxi (my absolute favourite diapers): the pharmacist did not understand what I said straight away, and I was so embarrassed that I wanted to just run away without even saying "good bye".
It was easier the second or third time, and with time it also became exciting ordering diapers on the phone or directly in the pharmacy.
Every time I walk in a supermarket I'm tempted to buy diapers and try to resist (also because they cost a lot!). Then there are periods when I don't wear a diaper in months and then.. BAM! All of a sudden I look for my diapers and if I don't have one to wear I feel like I'm going crazy and the day after I'm at the pharmacy again...
This "swing of desire" made me take a bus today to a supermarket to buy a new package of diapers (Tena Pants Super, this time) and some bed underpads in case I leaked. And I'm in Germany for a stage.. I felt like my craving for diapers was stronger than anything else: my laziness, the shame of buying them in public. When I got home I wore one immediately and the need to wet it felt like the most important thing to do...
Does anyone else experiment the same feelings and things? There are periods where I think that my interest for diapers is over, but in the end it always comes back.
Sorry for the long post, I just wanted to share a few thoughts about this crazy and complicated relationship I have to my diapers! I hope I didn't annoy or bore anyone. ;-)