Some of you may have seen my original posting about my fears concerning my ability to bear children.
At this point I'm toying around the idea of discontinuing my birth control... It is so emotionally painful to use a product that condemns me to not knowing how broken my own body is.
I find myself worrying immensely about what happens not only if I can not conceive, but also, if I CAN.
In theory, with my specific birth control after I discontinue it I am nearly immediately able to get pregnant.
Concerns about finances, long-term implications, my own health flood me. But I am also oddly concerned that being a mother could squelch my own diaper-related interests, or that it would just feel awkward.
I would love any words of wisdom, or thoughts, from anyone regarding anything related ... Just so... lost.