So my boyfriend is actually the one who encouraged me to start wearing diapers again. I told him they made me feel safe and he's been very accepting of them for the past year now. He always buys them for me when I need them and when I've had a bad day he always suggests I put them on before bed.
However, lately Ive been wanting him to 'participate' more when it comes to helping me feel 'little'. I've seen so many ABDL couples on tumblr and stuff and I'll admit, Ive become I bit jealous.
The other night, I put on a goodnite, and climbed in to bed. I was hoping my bf would pat my bum or baby-talk me or even just cuddle me, but he fell asleep right away. I ended up in tears just out of frustration. Im frustrated because he's so open and accepting, yet Im too embarrassed/nervous about telling him what my fantasies are. I want him to put them on me, I want him to suggest I wear them during the day sometimes etc. I fear he'll hate it or think it's messed up and because he's so nice he'll go along with it and participate but secretly think Im a weirdo.
I don't know if Im explaining myself properly, probably not