Sup adisc? Some of you know who I am, most of you are probably wondering who I am. That's fine. I've been a member since 2009, and I've hardly ever posted here during that time until now. I have a lot of social problems, and I find it nigh impossible to fit in anywhere and as a result, I have zero friends. For a good couple of years now, I was thankful for having no friends, so I could wallow in my own misery without spreading darkness and despair to others. It's only since a couple of weeks ago that I've decided that it's a very unhealthy state of mind to be in.
The last time I was posting on here, I had to leave because I felt like the community here was so incredibly tight-knit, that it was impossible for me to insert myself into the group. It really made me upset a lot, but I was of course imagining it all. I had the same chance to make friends on here than any other normal person.
The reason I felt like this, was because I was addicted to a drug. This drug is called Cannabis. It wasn't a chemical addiction, but a mental addiction. I felt like I needed it to be able to laugh, to be able to survive walking outside the front door. I depended on it for ages, using it as a crutch to forget about my problems. It was awfully destructive to my personality, and it got to the point where I said to myself "I don't want a normal life. I want to spend all day in my bedroom smoking weed." It even got the point where I was spending more than £100 a week on the stuff. That's fuckin' crazy!!
Not only did it make me forget/not care about my problems (such as having no friends, no social skills, etc), but it made the problems MUCH worse.
The last time I posted on here, I almost committed suicide as I was very deep in despair, and I saw my life as pointlessly futile. I failed, thank god, and after a long rest, I'm ready to come back. After I tackled my biggest problem, which is my drug addiction, I feel as though my real self that was locked in a cage, has finally been set free.
I still have my fair share of problems, but the biggest one is gone, so now I can focus on my other problems, such as developing my social skills, and finding a relationship.
The reason I made this thread is not to tell you all that I'm back, or why I was gone, but to tell you the dangers of Cannabis. I've smoked it almost every day for 3 years, and so now I feel like I'm confident to honestly tell you about it.
It's a funny old plant. It smells kinda funky, and the effects you get can be out of this world. But it's EXACTLY like alcohol. You have to be able to moderate it, otherwise it can take over your life, especially if you're weak willed like me. I'm not advertising it to you, just giving you a warning that you can turn into a weedaholic if you're not careful. If you currently have any mental problems, then stay away from it. It can make your condition ten times worse. I was diagnosed with Aspergers Syndrome not long ago, and I think it was the main reason why I was so obsessed with smoking weed. I thought it was great, so I didn't want to do anything else. I was stuck in this state of mind for AGES, and I've only recently been able to crack it. I'm never going to try weed again. Even if someone offers me an ounce for free. I can't do it again, otherwise it would kill me. I bet there's people on here who smoke it, and haven't a fuckin' clue what I'm talking about. I just want to say 'Good for you'. You're able to smoke it and not become a slave to it. But there are people out there which weed will take control of. I think it's around 1 out of 20 people can become hooked onto it. I can't stop you from trying it. I can however give you a warning about it, crafted from personal experience. BE CAREFUL. Also, if you're under 18, DO NOT TRY IT. Your mind is still developing, and cannabis can interrupt that development, or at least influence it in a bad way.
Now that it is out of my life, I feel INCREDIBLE. My intelligence has taken a very noticeable climb since I've stopped, and so has my confidence. I'm still quite shy though, and I wish I could become a regular poster on here, but this is something I have to work on. I'm happy to be back, and I'm ecstatic that some people even remember me! I am now looking forward to the rest of my life..
tl;dr: Cannabis is mentally addicting to certain people. If you have to try it, be extremely careful, especially if you have mental disorders. Also I'm back to posting.
If a moderator has a problem with this post, I'm very very sorry. I studied the rules for ages to make sure not to break them. Please don't ban me. I'm not that used to posting stuff on the internet these days, so if I've said something bad or broken any rules, please don't ban me, just let me know. Otherwise I'll never learn.