Just been reading:
I see many people write that they derive comfort or pleasure from their fetish.
But for me it seems like an unhealthy drug, I know my fetish (DL) was formed at a very young age (I was in diapers till 5/6). My mum was also very strict.
In private I get arousal from the humiliation aspect, and also the sensations of wearing - I also indulge in mild cross dressing and sissy'ism (made up term).
In my public life my indulgence causes me much social anxiety.
With this in mind - should I conclude that my fetish is an unhealthy one, as I derive no real comfort from it, its just a compulsion driven by some negative childhood experiences.
I am in two minds, should I go the route of more acceptance, or somehow try to rid my mind of such urges - which hopefully will ease the social anxiety.
Most of the time I am a confident outgoing person, if it wasn't for my DL fetish, which seems to sit uncomfortably on my shoulder when out in social situations.