I have recently come to realise I have had a 15 year Internet Porn addiction - much of it ABDL porn/images.
It has affected my work and sexual relations with the various girlfriends over that time.
It has also lead to social anxiety and loss of self esteem in certain social situations.
So have decided to try and do something to improve things in my life regarding this.
I have done lots of reading here:
Start here for an overview of concepts & science | Your Brain On Porn
And posted here:
Your Brain Rebalanced - Overcoming Pornography Addiction
But the forum though doesn't address DL'ism in relation to
porn particularly well.
I have read most of the articles here in: 'ABDL General Info', very good
My erotic desire for Diapers has been with me since about 7/8 years of age, I was in diapers up till age 5/6. I fully engaged with the fetish when the internet came of age for me - about 15 years ago.
I have been through the binge purge cycle many times, but always come back to it.
Has anyone been down the route to try to 'reboot', as the Your Brain On Porn | Evolution has not prepared your brain for today's Internet porn website proclaims.
I agree that constant viewing of particular images reinforces the wiring in your brain to like whatever you like, and that you can retrain your brain to forget those learned paths (ie acquired through internet porn), but what about desires learned in early childhood, such as myself, can you unwire those ?
I am accepting mostly of my fetish, in private I feel I have accepted why I have it, but I still feel great public shame, and in certain social situations can have panic attacks, (the nervous tic in my head waiting for someone to bring up the subject of Adult Babies - as a random point of conversation) and me end up blushing, - I feel my indulgence in my DL fetish contributes or is responsible for such.
Any thoughts appreciated.