So I've recently been spending time with a girl, and I would like to start something a little more meaningful with her...thing is, I'm really bad at expressing my deeper feelings to anyone and everyone.
I have always been really timid from the time I was really young, and I often have trouble conveying my feelings to a woman in fear that they won't be embraced with open arms. This time I'm trying to take it as slow as possible so that I earn her trust, and to try and build a solid friendship with her before creating a relationship that could otherwise fall apart.
I think this is a solid approach, as it has worked completely on accident in the past (though life separated us without a chance to do anything about it), but the thing is, when I have a conscious desire to make a relationship something more...I can't really control what I do. I make stupid decisions and end up making myself look like an ass. It's like I feel compassion for someone, but when I fear that these feelings may get rejected I bottle them up, and they end up manifesting through said stupid decisions.
I guess the main point here is that I'm really afraid of losing my grip on love and the unknown. I could really use some advice here...I don't want to screw this chance up!