I don't have any AB stuff yet, & I haven't worn in over a year, because I don't wanna sin to get them. Last time I wore, I took them. I'm absolutely sure my mom & stepdad know. Mom thinks I'm cuckoo bananas, & wasn't shy about telling my sister she thought so. My stepdad mentioned it, loudly in front of Yahweh & everybody, because he was mad at me for flipping out about mom putting the washable version of a chux pad on my bed under my sheet. It crinkled terribly, it was kinda pointless, because my bladder muscles normalize when I sleep, I couldn't psychologically side-step it, & it freaked me out! I covered my ears, & tried to drown him out, but I still heard him.
I have a mattress pad that covers the whole mattress now. What a concept! I can psychologically side-step it by saying, "Of course I have it. Do you like getting sweat, puke, or allergens on your memory foam?"
They know the IC isn't my fault, & don't make me feel bad every time it happens to me, & since they love me too much to mention my ABhood any further, at least 'til I tick them off again., if they wanna think I'm, they can, especially since I think they might be right.
Even some of the trauma I experienced in early childhood with my biofamily (I was adopted.) wasn't intentional. They just got frustrated & didn't know it was my CP causing it.
My Crayola stuff alone will be over $200. I know, I could probably singlehandedly keep the company afloat, but it helps me express myself, so it's really important! I did some pretty dark artwork after my stepdad accused me of bed-wetting. It has happened, but only after I first woke up in the morning, because the spasms started, & weird as it sounds, if I sat up too quickly, or transferred to my wheelchair too fast, I'd pee, but it hasn't happened in at least a year, so why bother?! Go figure. He only accuses me of that, or brings my IC up when he's mad at me because I've hurt his feelings, because he knows it's the 1 sure-fire way to hurt me, & that was before he mentioned my AB side! Yeah, we don't do that; that's not nice!
I'm probably gonna get 2 different s, one of which lights up! My blankie will cost more because of the plastic beads to weigh it down. Too bad it's best to wait 'til I move out.
A case of the pull-ups I wanna use is $179.95!, but I'd expect that for the quality of Abena You can imagine what boosters, dry wipes, (The wet ones, even for adults, are too small.) wipe solution, (It's cheaper to make my own.), all-natural ointments, & nullo tablets will cost. I feel bad for full-timers. Oy veh!
For me, little time is a therapy sesh, learning not to dehydrate 'til I damage my body, asking for help isn't weak, & being too sick or hurt to ask is the scariest thing ever, but it's not deadly, love isn't contingent on clean, dry clothes, that kind of thing. Guess no one can build a TheraPlay space overnight, & surely not for cheap.