A little background first: As of early March of this year, I've been trying to rid myself of my diaper fetish. Or, more accurately, I've been trying to lessen my dependency on them for sexual and emotional satisfaction, and gain control of my urges and dreams, which for a while had gone pretty haywire. I'm the type of person that likes to limit things in order to keep an overall balance in my life, and diapers are no exception to this mentality. I've tried quitting before, and at most, those periods lasted only a few weeks until I eventually broke down and found a compromise. However, this time was and is still different. When I decided to go cold turkey this time, I felt ready to move on, and the process turned out to be much easier than before. I had a weak moment or two in between, but overall I've gone about three months without any strong urges or roleplaying needs. I even decided to delete my Deviant Art account, which was actually a pretty liberating experience for someone who used to be so dependent on it.
Now on to the main point of discussion. I've built up a nice amount of online friends through the *B/DL community over the past few years, and I had always thought that there was no difference between a physical friend and an online friend, since the friendship was still there either way. However, when I told a few of my online friends about my desire to quit and lack of desire to roleplay (or, in some cases, gawk at their diaper pics), I was shocked at the speed at which they lost interest in me. Now this wasn't the case for all of them; those which I found a strong friendship outside of diapers are still very dear to me, and I still chat with them frequently. But I'm still just shocked by some of them, since there were times when my connection with them was so strong, I thought it might have been love. Admittedly, there were times when I only wanted to talk to them because I knew that they'd baby me or make me feel cute in some way, and I knew it was the same for them. I could tell by the way they talked or typed. By the end of it, I felt like I was just used as a means to an end, and the worst part is that I probably made them feel the same way.
Sorry if I rambled on for a bit up there, but my main question is this: What are your opinions on friendships formed through diapers and ageplay? Do you think it's harder to maintain one once diapers are taken out of the equation?