I don't know what to do. I'm lonely but I am so very, very shy that I have a hard time meeting and talking to people that I don't already know very well. I feel stupid. I don't know what to say most of the time without feeling awkward. I've been hurt so many times in my life which probably plays a part in it. I try to be social but I just feel so scared sometimes. When I perform (I make a living as an entertainer) I am fine. I have never had stage fright in my life. Actually quite the opposite. I am very confident and comanding onstage and can control a sea of people but when I'm not up there I am very self conscious and insecure. It makes no sense to me. Anyone else ever been that way? I need advice. I have someone who is interested in being a mommy for me but when talking to her on the phone I get butterflies and stumble a lot. Anyone who has been through similar feelings please help.