This is something that has been at the forefront my my mind lately, so I'm just going to let it go here. My apologies if this is a redundant subject.
Recently, I have been feeling some frustration over keeping this AB/DL part of myself hidden from so many people. Last night, I was out and about, buying some Goodnites because I have no more diapers, and oddly was feeling some sort of withdrawal without them. First time that ever happened actually. Just started feeling odd without having a diaper on.
Anyways, along with my Goodnites, I bought some baby powder and some new pacifiers. I was carrying quite a small bag, so I had to swing it around and hide it, so no one could guess what was inside of it. I had to take extra care when I came home. Our back door opens into a laundry room, and my roommate was inside folding his clothes. I had to sidestep him and dash up the stairs.
It just really started eating at me, and has been for some time. Why do I have to hide this part of myself from people? Why must I have to tiptoe around people, trying my darnedest to hide the crinkle underneath my pants? I mean what gives? Is it too much to ask for understanding people in your life? People who love and support you no matter what you wear under your clothes?
I truly wish I had people in my life that understood my position as an AB/DL. People that wouldn't raise their eyebrows at me buying a thing of baby powder, or hearing the crinkle of a diaper under my clothing.
I'm going to say this plainly, Adisc... what I want the most, is YOU.
This site has helped me so many times since I first discovered this part of me a while back. It is always there when I need a sympathetic ear, or some friendly advice, or even just to shoot the breeze with like minded folk. I was going through some old threads, reading some responses from people on here, and I can honestly say it made my heart hurt quite a bit.
What I wouldn't give to at least meet a couple of you, just so we can talk, and have a mutual understanding of things we enjoy. It would feel so incredible to just know that there are people around who know what I'm wearing underneath my shorts, and not even think twice on it. It would be amazing to just have a play-date, or hang out, even if only for a little while.
I love my friends I have in my life, but none of them would have any clue about this side of me. None of them could even begin to understand why I indulge like I do, or why I prefer diapers to underwear.
It just makes me think on how I would love to have a few of you around, to laugh and share times with, both good and bad. How I would love to call one of you guys up, and ask you for advice when I needed it. What I wouldn't give to actually get to know you guys, or like minded folk. Don't get me wrong, I really am not a complainer, at least I try not to be. I've just been thinking how nice it would be to not hide this from at least one person.
Sorry if this is too long, I felt like I had to vent. Thanks guys.