Sorry if this ends up too long, but I've got a lot on my mind so...
A couple of months ago a guy I met about 2 YEARS prior in a park (note to self: NEVER give out your phone number to some random kid)
called me and kept pestering me to hang out with him.
At first I said no defiantly, and as we were talking somehow I mentioned that I was (and still am) a virgin, and then he invited me over to his house to "meet some girls" I guess?
I don't know what I was thinking but I went. At first he started talking about how he was going to call some girl that wanted to have sex with me, now I was kind of skeptical. He gave me some clothes to wear because he said my clothes weren't attractive enough. Then he asked a somewhat personal question: if my groin was shaved. I said no. Then for some stupid reason I agreed to have him shave it for me. Again, I don't know what I was thinking Because he was pulling on my penis, naturally I got an erection, and he started to suck my penis. I asked him what he was doing, and he said he thought I had got an erection because I was turned on.
I have never had the slightest idea that I would be bisexual, and still think that I'm not, but I'm not quite sure. I am not attracted to having sex with a man. He stopped and we then did something that I would consider more normal but a little weird: started watching porn. But then he suggested we watch a GAY porn. Which we did. By this point he had offered me meth, which I reluctantly snorted. Now that we were watching gay porn, he started to jack off. I was a little perturbed but we kept watching.
A little while after he suggested that we try what we saw.
Now I was maybe slightly buzzed from the meth and beer, but for some reason I said ok. Then we went into the bathroom and uh, did some stuff. I couldn't get an erection and was reluctant to everything, but for some reason or another I agreed to do it. Now I am confused because, I really could have left at any point but I stayed, and agreed to do everything. Maybe I am too naive or maybe I am too passive, I don't know. But I really do not want to see him ever again (not to mention everything he said was a lie) nor do I have any inkling to do anything with any other guys. He called me several times after that saying annoying things and trying to pressure me more, but I would say no and hang up.
Sorry if this is long again, I just really wanted to get that off my chest. I didn't tell anyone but my mom, who was understand, I didn't even tell my twin brother whom I tell everything to (except that I like diapers). Thanks for listening to me rant.