*Be warned- long and fateful post*
I am a 21 years young gay artsy-DL/LB from Israel.
A while ago I asked myself a question: why can't I be together with one of those gorgeous tumblr diaper boys I see on the web?
Why must I always come back to something which seems impossible to reach, a fantasy?
I tend not to give myself compliments easily as a way of life, But still- I am a good looking, articulate, very talented and articulate person with a huge potential for love and kindness towards others. Yet I am alone. I hate my waking life. I used to believe I am capable of great happiness, that I am entitled to great happiness.
Well- today I finally made a decision: despite some threads I saw warning the reader from fixating on an ABDL relationships, I am going to find an ABDL boyfriend in the UK. Sometime in upcoming year or so, I am going to fly to an actual foreign country, in search for a romantic partner.
I've chosen the UK for several reasons:
I adore the English language, the English accent(s), and the English culture in general. England has more ABDL's than Israel. England is a more classical-music-friendly country than Israel, so I might even study/move there eventually.
I even have relatives there that will let me stay at their house.
I've also decided that since this is a very long shot, I am not going make any compromises on choosing the right person.
So at first I suppose I'll be browsing online profiles, searching for attractive, intelligent, and kind people. I will chat with some of them, and eventually even videochat.
At some point I will probably come across someone who will be THAT special and un-probable that I will actually fly just to see him in person.
So umm....... Help?
How do I go about doing something like this?
Since I am not crazy rich, flights are not a thing to be taken lightly at all, not to mention logistics etc'..
Do any of you have any wise advice to give? Any advice whatsoever. I'm keen to know what people think about this kind of bold declaration. "You're naive", "You're young...", "Nice thought but..."
It's just that this is first idea in a long time that I genuinely believe can give me real motivation to live. Hint- I don't have much.