Having had a desire to regress, for as long as I can remember, seems very normal to me. Diapers have simply been part of the scenario ... there were always other baby items present. All this began long before I experienced anything of a sexual nature, and although the two inevitably became intertwined, the emotional regression and associated behaviours always took precedence over anything that puberty may have added to the mix.
My question is regarding the way we cope with our inclinations. Somehow I imagine it to be easier for pure DLs, as any confusion or dysphoric feelings that relate to the physical or age disparity between reality and fantasy wouldn't be there.
As a DL only, I imagine I could simply indulge my desires as the man I am with no awkwardness about it. As an AB though, there are constant reminders that things just aren't right.
Once deeply regressed, no such awkwardness or inhibitions exist, I am completely unaware that anything is not as it should be....however often at other times the reality can leave me feeling quite down.
So does being AB make this whole thing more difficult than if I were just a DL (on a side note ... LGs .... I imagine that to be even tougher)