So, it took me a while to finally post something about myself due to fears, but here goes nothing... I am a mental health professional, a loving husband, and the keeper of some amazing little critters (my dog and two beautiful cats). I am not the typical macho guy, never have been. I like to relate to life and people on an emotional level and find one of the greatest blessings in life to join others in their struggles and challenges, encouraging them toward a place of strength, peace, and hope.
I am a diaper lover with a slice of adult baby thrown in, finding my way back to diapers in my early teens after a somewhat traumatic incident when I was younger (scolded by grandmother for innocently playing in a diaper all day when my brother and I were young). I can still recall that pack of pink mid-90's pampers sitting on the shelf in my other grandmother's walk-in closet, completely grabbing my attention when my cousin and I were playing there. Before the night was over, I had taken some and hidden them in my overnight bag to wear later. I never would have guessed where that decision would have taken me.... through years of joy, excitement, pain, isolation, guilt and eventually coming to a place of acceptance many years later.
I used to think that being in diapers 24/7 would be an amazing thing, but thankfully that desire never proved true in reality, and my life is full of many other amazing aspects that bring me great joy and satisfaction. One of my passions through life has been playing guitar, picking up an electric guitar at age 13 and jamming out to Black Sabbath. In more recent years, a love of the great outdoors and backpacking has been my passion. I have an amazingly wonderful wife that loves the outdoors and pushing herself as much as I do. Other interests of mine include reading books on psychology and places I'd love to travel, such as New Zealand.
I came to this site after a 4 year hiatus of not wearing diapers, seeking information on diapers and reconnecting to this part of myself. I had just read the books "There's a Baby in My Bed" and "The Age Play and Diaper Fetish Handbook." I found this website referenced in these books. I also began journaling on my desire and experiences of returning to little self, so to speak. I decided to join this website because it seemed more informative and useful than the others out there, hoping to share with people like myself, and seeking answers and support. Although my wife loves me, she fears this part of me and what it means; thus, she is unable to truly show me acceptance or support in a way I truly desire.
As I write this post, I find a sense of liberation and hope in my chest. I don't know where all this is headed, but I am glad to have other's who can at least understand my journey.
Thanks for listening,