so, everyone --
I posted not too long ago with some info about myself; how I initially got into diapers, etc. I also mentioned that I was in a relationship with someone for around 3 years. We've lived together for about 15 months and share everything (even undies).
we fell on some hard times in November with our relationship -- or should I say, I had VERY good reason to end it all and move on with my life. betrayal is the worst deceit. although, I found strength to press on and begin the rebuilding process.
lately, we've been fighting -- and I admit, I didn't give a shit if we DID fight, it became a daily occurrence. after a while, I realized that I was contributing to the demise of our delicately built relationship. I knew I needed to do something to prove to him that I was beginning to trust him again, and I WANTED that trust there ...
tonight I told him I've been a DL since I was around 12-13. I explained that it went away for a while, now it's back and I really want to start exploring it again. I told him that this was my way to help begin rebuilding the trust that was lost. "Listen, if I can trust you with this .. I can trust you with anything, right?"
so, how did he react? let's see ..
he started CRACKING up laughing.
let me explain why: last night I told him I needed to tell him about my fetish and that I was afraid he would be disgusted. I eventually PUSS'D out and didn't even tell him last night. we were really baked and that's what made it so tough. BUT tonight I was REELING and READY to let the cat out of the bag.
he thought I was going to tell him I was into scat or something. PHEW, thank goodness I'm NOT. he laughed for a bit, then got serious. I explained how it began, what I remember of it, and what I'm expecting of my future with it. he told me as long as I didn't 'mess' in it (funny, he knows the terminology), that he was TOTALLY cool if I wanted to sit around in a diaper. he also explained that he'd prefer if no one was over the house when I was diapered.
after all was said and done, he gave me a smooch goodnight then went to bed. he laughed again, said I shouldn't have gotten so worked up and that it was not a big deal.
I am very, very thankful for this. I know this could have gone wrong on so many levels, but I need to start becoming more in tune with myself again.
but WOW!@# I can NOT believe that I just did this. it feels incredible on SO many levels and y'know what .. I haven't even had a diaper on since I was in my teens. I feel like going to Wal-Mart RIGHT NOW and grabbing a pack of diapers.
Tomorrow. Definitely. After work. MAKING IT HAPPEN!!!