alrighty. so i know ive posted about my girlfriend before and how we have had our issues in the past. Now another lil issue has arisen. btw my girlfriend and I are 1 month away from being together 3 years.
anyway, so we had a stupid argument the other night, which led me leaving her house around 2:30am and going home. the next day we didnt talk till around 4ish in the afternoon and she said she was really hurt and everything. I wouldnt say i have an anger problem in this situation, I just really wanted to sleep that night so i got really cranky, but i mean I should learn to control my anger a little differently then I usually take it, i think it comes from my dad. So we had an argument on the phone and after we ended a call abruptly she text me saying "I don't want to do this, I dont want to be like this, i need time and I dont want to talk for a bit." NOW, most people would take that as a, 'i'm going to break it off with you soon,' and thats how I took it. So i sent back to her "fine, break up with me, because if your not willing to chance and i'm not willing to change nothing will."
After not talking for a couple of hours she text me saying for me to come over. So when I got over there she was fine and she WASNT going to break up with me, but lets rewind to what I was thinking before i went over there. I started to think about what it was like to be single again. the independence, the going to parties alone and meeting people there blah blah. I don't know, I miss it. i'm not writing this to ask if I should break up with her, i know thats up to me. Sorry about the bold I just wanted to point that out there. And so that night we had a talk about how i thought she was going to break up with me, THEN she got the idea that I wanted her to break up with her because I thought about how good it would be to be single again (i was a little bit). *anyway this is the question. I told her at one stage that even though we are together now, I want to break up in the future, because I dont want to be with someone all through my 20s. Was it wrong for me to say this? I feel really bad because she said she doesnt know what the point is of being in a relationship that ultimately will one day lead to heartbreak. We're still together but over the last day she has been very touchy with how she treats me, like even if a tv show is on and ill be like i dont want to watch that and she'll be like but i want to, then she'll quickly turn around and be like OH no no, we can watch what you want. I duno I just kind of feel bad.
maybe this relationship is slowly coming to an end. This is maybe like the 3rd time we've had issues involving this. at one stage we took a break for a week (no communication whatsoever) because the relationship started feeling like we were just best friends.
SORRY as well. This seems to have turned into more of a rant, and please forgive me, I don't have many friends to talk to this about, thats probably why it is so long :/