Ok I think I could use some help please.
I will start off with some back story. I only found this Web site a few months ago and it's been great for me coming to terms with being an AB (still feels weird saying that). I have been with my GF for 6 years and I told her some stuff over time iv got a pacifier and plush that stay in or around my bed and she is fine with that (she is very young at heart still sucks her thumb and likes a bedtime story every now and then) I had a feeling she might be an AB but that is not the case. I told her about me liking diapers about 2 years ago was so nervous i couldn't say it and she guest it we talked a little on it then it was nether brought up again. I have been planning to bring it up again i was so annoyed at keeping it to my self. Well the other day we had a heart to heart and I came out completely went really well she was fine with it and I told her I had some diapers tucked away she came straight out and asked me if I wanted to wear one I was so nervous i couldn't say yes well over the last few days she offered again and again and I finally did it last night was really nervous and it went ok ish felt so nervous i couldn't enjoy it.
The thing I need help with is she is getting annoyed at me asking if it's ok I still don't think I have come to terms with the fact that she's fine with it. I want to talk about it more as it is helping me come to terms with it but I don't want to annoy her as her mood has changed over the last few days and i cant tell went she is get annoyed about somthing so I find it really hard to just talk about it. She hasn't really asked any questions on the matter at all and that worries me alot I don't want it to go like the last time when I came out and we nether talked about it again. Do you think it would be a good idea to show her this website? So she might understand it better or should I just leave it for abit? and enjoy the fact that iv found someone that Is ok with it.
I love her so much just don't want her to do a runner. She has said she understands it and is fine with it but I think I'm not yet and maybe me feeling like that is making me think she's not ok with it. Just confused about it all.
Is there anything that helped you come to terms with it? Or if you have been lucky to have someone but were you still reluctant to do it? And what helped you start out? I don't want everything straight away and know I need to take it slow but still think i will drop it and we will nether talk about it again if I leave it
Sorry for rambling on am just confused any help would be great
Thank you for reading this sorry for any spelling mistakes i have dyslexia and feel free to ask questions
It's taken me 2 hours to write this and post it am still really nervous