I know there has been threads in the past on the Binge and Purge cycle, but I have a clarifying question.
Since I joined last year I have come to terms with the whole Paraphilia Infantilism and accept who I am and how this effects my life. I have been doing real good with balance and control of the two aspects of my life. However for the last two months I have been having an on going issue with my clinical depression (winter season is one of my tougher times). Things have been going relatively OK as far as the Diaper Side of life. Then in the last week things have gotten a little confusing. I am not sure if it is just "excitement" from getting replacements plastic pants, because the ones last year have gotten torn and very stiff, or what.
The last three days I have been having urges almost as bad as before I joined this group, and the dreams are back. They are not the getting caught types, or the trying to hide the fact that I am wearing like I had before my self acceptance.
So I guess what I am asking is Does the binge cycle urges still hit hard?
Is it still "normal", even though I can wear when ever I want, depending on what I need to be doing in the morning.
I have been doing real good for the last seven or eight months. I have had times when I felt like wearing and there was no "Need for Therapy" that I worked out with my therapist. And I have also had some long periods were I did not wear at all. I think the longest one was 4 weeks. I have not been having any issues over the last few weeks other then the irritability and medication reaction that I am working with my Psychiatrist on. Things have improved it that department, but just over the last three days I cant stop thinking about my diapers and the want to get padded.
Thanks for your time and consideration reading this.