I'm kind of at a cross-roads. I've talked to my parent about getting spanked. She spanks me every now and then now but not like a regular normal thing. Oh, BTW, my parent is my wife. When she spanks me it's a real spanking. She puts me over her lap and spanks me with the back or her hairbrush on my bare bottom. The hairbrush has a nice big flat back and it REALLY stings. She's really good at scolding me with just the right words and try as I might I usually end up crying. I just feel ridiculous going over her lap and getting spanked and then crying about it. It takes me to a whole different emotional level.
The thing is though that in out discussions we have talked about using spankings more like they would have been administered in the 50's. I would get spanked a couple of times a week as needed. I hate getting spanked. They are as traumatic as they were when I was a smaller child. I agree with my parent that I deserve to be spanked and I would benefit from getting spanked. I'm really proud that my parent loves me enough that she wants to spank me. I love everything about it except actually getting spanked.
If I accept her proposal then I can never change my mind. She has a paper she wants me to sign such that if anything ever happened she wouldn't be accused of abuse. I agree with that. The paper isn't really for compliance. She has other ways which I don't want to get into, to assure my cooperation in getting spanked.
It's also a big step because it isn't just agreeing to the spankings but rather accepting her parental authority over me.
What would you do?