Hi all- I was meaning to post this a few weeks ago, but I have finally gotten round to it. I would like to start by saying that I am not depressed or anything like that and I generally have a love of life and for the world. For the record, I am 23 and live in the U.K.
However- I have (over a period of time) become rather disillusioned with life. It seems that every single job I have worked for I have been treated badly. I honestly go into every job I do trying my best and I usually end up making some small mistake and get told off for it. In my current job I feel thankful if I can make it through the day without being told off for making a mistake.
In other jobs I have worked in, I would have either an over-zealous supervisor or been talked down too. I have worked out of 2 jobs in the past year due to verbal abuse/stress I have received. I would like to state that I am not an emotional or provocative person, and have never sworn or been verbally abusive back.
When I turn on my TV, all I see are adverts for gambling or 'pay-day loans', when I get paid, most of my money goes on bills. Politicians just do not care, and our government have no idea how a 'normal person' lives.
I am fed up. I want a change in life, a dramatic change. I am fed up of my country and the direction it is heading. I am fed up of hyped up emotions and when people lose their temper with me ( and others ).
The amount of boy racers I see, the number of street fights/arguments, the dull uninspiring town I live in. Christmas drove me insane. Commercialism drives me insane. Hidden charges and fees, spam text messages and nuisance phone calls.
I lived in South East Asia for 10 years growing up and what I saw over there is a family first culture and respect for people. When I came back to the UK when I was 15, I could never fit in, and still have not fitted in.
Gah..I dont know what to do. I just want an escape off this rain sodden shitty island.