Diapers and ageplay are the only thing that arouses me but I enjoy sex and want to have a sexual relationship. But being confident about my sexuality isn't enough. I've read a lot of posts from people in relationships about how they keep their AB stuff to themselves and their partner has nothing to do with that. I DO NOT want that kind of life. I want to find someone who will understand my need to be babied. Not 24/7. But I don't want anyone controlling or negotiating when and where I can wear diapers.
Alright you all probably think I'm selfish now.
Ever since I moved back with my parents my mom has told me a "bedtime story" every night about me one day getting over my barriers and meeting a girl who accepts me, diapers and all. As I have stated before I want a relationship and not a fantasy. I'm not looking for a mommy. But how realistic is it that someone who loves me will be willing to be a "mommy" at times just as I would be supportive to them?
Does that still sound selfish? Maybe it's not selfish and that's just the blulnt, insensitive BDSM jerks from that other website talking?
Please, I need help with this. I would feel unfulfilled if age play weren't incorporated into a relationship.
Is this asking too much of someone if they love you?
And if they say they love you, but your sexuality disgusts them, do they really love you???
My only experience with ABDL in a relationship was with a psychotic girlfriend who used it to manipulate me and make me feel bad, as well as to pleasure me, just for that extra umph of manipulation.