So I first joined this site about a year ago, when my boyfriend told me that he liked to wear diapers. I wanted to learn all I could and be supportive, and for the most part, things have worked out really well. I wear diapers for him sometimes and I try to say the things he likes to hear -- the only problem is, he doesn't really know what he wants to hear, because he's never shared this part of his life with anybody else before. We try to talk about it, but he gets a little frustrated because he can't answer my questions.
I should mention that this isn't something I've asked him to keep to himself by any means. He wears all the time, and I wear for him, but just wearing doesn't seem to do the trick. I'm also not very confident with sex (or, well, in general, hah). He wants me to tell him to do things, but he won't listen to me when I do, even when I push for it, and we haven't figured out any other way for me to turn him on. So I just...can't turn him on. Which is a bummer.
Which leads me to the whole reason I'm even posting: I hate that I can't turn him on, no matter what I do. My body doesn't turn him on, and if I try to kiss him he can't get in the mood unless he's already been thinking about his fantasies. I've tried to be a part of those fantasies for him, but if he hasn't already gotten himself horny then it doesn't work. Having always been wildly insecure, I don't take this very well, which I do feel badly about. I realize he can never be sexually attracted to ME, and I think that's been the only thing that's really difficult to cope with. Which is stupid, because he loves me very much and would do anything for me, and that really should be comforting enough.
I realize that I'm just whining and ranting at this point. I was just wondering if there's maybe anybody out there whose felt the same way, or can explain how you still have an attraction to your significant other when you're just into diapers. Or maybe you can't, and how you expect them to feel about it. Or. Something.
HELP ME COME TO TERMS WITH THIS.