So I've been at peace with this part of my life for about five years now. By this, I mean, I have accepted that my interest in diapers won't go away and that using them with moderation is reasonable. For the 15 years before this, I was at war with it and had the Normal cycles of shame and binge/purge events.
Lately, whenever I wear just for fun around the house or while I'm doing some work on the computer, I find that I feel this edge of low-grade anxiety and stress. If I'm trying to work/think, I have a difficult time concentrating. If I'm trying to just have a good time, I can't really fully call down and enjoy myself. It's like wearing puts me in this heightened state of....whatever this is...
Anyone else relate in similar/same ways?