alright please read these links first before reading anything else on this thread. and yes chances are you already know ALL or even MORE about this then me it's just necessary for me to simplify communication here
Basically I just got 2 cases of Total Dry plus diapers in the mail 3 days ago and had a binge cycle(not controlled substances, i mean diapers) and now it would appear that I am finally starting to slow down in terms of desire's to wear them and it seems I will just go ahead and put the diapers away now because of it.
The reason why this is a rare moment for me is because I just got done with a binge cycle and I believe I have just started my "purge" cycle for the first time in my life and NOT feel that I am some sort of freak or something like that(meaning that I have NOT gotten disgusted of myself by doing this for the first time). I have slept diapered for the past 3 nights and I did sleep more comfortably those 3 days then what I have slept for the last 5 years I think. this is just something that I wanted to share because it seems encouraging to me. this has NEVER happened to me before since I started doing this when I was 16 years old and has gone on for me for the last 20 years and 8 months and 23 days of my life. it's such a relief to know that I can be comfortable with who and what I am. I just wanted to say thank you for helping me by simply showing me that I was not alone in this. if it was not for ADISC and the rest of this community this would not have been possible for me.