Hello to you all, my beloved diapered community. I seem to have a bit of a problem and could really go for some advice. I live in a set of condominiums that used to be apartments and so I have neighbors below me, and to the side. Up until a few months ago I had the freedom to wear my diapers comfortably in my room without worries of disturbing anyone because there was no one living below me. I must admit I felt very lucky and I had my fun on the weekends when my roommate would leave for the weekend.
Well that all changed when I got new neighbors a few months ago, I knew I knew I couldn't just wear them whenever, the walls here are THIN, I can hear people cough through the walls and talking sometimes. As many of you will know and from all the posts on here, holding back diaper desires doesn't work forever.
There was a time where I turned very selfish and smoked weed out on my balcony and would stink up the place outside (There's kids all around here). I would sometimes drink in my house and the urges would get the best of me and with "liquid courage" I would start wearing my diapers all around the house. As you might expect, I totally put myself way out and now all my neighbors now know about that "weird guy" who's into diapers. Yes it did cause some problems to my confidence and self respect at first, but I moved on and decided I deserved the shame for shoving my tastes onto unwilling people.
Im not a bad person, I came out of the Army with some baggage and some of the things Ive done are a reflection of what i did to "fix" myself after the brainwashing. Some where self destructive, such as my smoking and excessive drinking. Me being a DL is from way back, so not the army's fault. But anyhow, Im now in the process of improving myself and I started by not smoking at all, I'm a few months smoke free and I want to look into going back to school and finally getting a job.
Drug and alcohol abuse aside. Im a DL and I can love and accept myself for it, it matches my big Kid mentality just perfectly. I wish I could still wear my bambino Teddy's here at home but its now out of the question, my neighbors deserve some respect and I'm gonna give it to them by respecting their privacy.
I can't fight the urges and I'm sure as heck not gonna suppress them, and here's where I get to my actual question. I wanna get into cloth diapers that are cute, but i cant seem to like those pre-fold diapers, I'm looking for something that has that disposable "hourglass" shape. I have seen some cloth diapers on e-bay and such and they're cute as a button. I wanted some advice on which are well made and fit well. I'm a bit chunky and starting to lose some weight but because of my genes Im gonna have a booty that comes with some meaty thighs.
I apologize if this post is too long, I wanted to come out from the shadows and share with you all a bit about myself and also ask for some advice. I fear my story may make me sound more negative than I actually am, all I ask is that you get to know me a little better before making an all out judgment about the kind of person I am. I have a background of self loathing and its in part because of this site that I am looking forward to humanizing myself.
I thank you all for the positive environment here on Adisc and look forward to those diaper recommendations. Waddle on with a smile on your face and your chin up