Ok so right now I am upset to the point of crying. I want to be just as upfront, and honest as I can. I may not get everything out in this post, but I will try. What I am so upset over at this moment is that I am trying to take it slowly with transitioning into this life style. I am feeling a tsunami of both positive, and negative emotions. As you may know when I was 14 I started having these feelings about being an baby/toddler. That was a long time ago, and I could not kick those feelings. Well I am a boy, and I like boy things. However there is also another twist to this. I also always wanted to be a girl as far back as I can remember.
I love pastel colors, blue, pink, purple. The thing of it is I do not like girl toys, or to wear extremely feminine things like frilly stuff. It seems like I would be a tomboy if I were born a girl. My problem is I do not look like a girl, and do not have the well body for it. That is like one big thing pushing me away some. With also the fact that I still know I am a boy, and cannot picture myself in girlish colored clothes. I am attracted to it more than the boy stuff. I wore a wig once for a college joke, and I actually did not want to stop wearing it because I felt more girl than boy when having it on. I am sorry if I don't make much sense.