For those who have not been here as long as I have; I use to have this as a diaper fetish minus the adult baby part. I found this website in search of the possibility to be incontinent and found some very helpful information.I traded my fetish for the life style of an AB/DL.
Of course I gave up on being incontinent simply because I started to appreciate the fact that I still have control over those functions. I had a moment when I had a little blood come out. Luckily it healed back up and what ever I did was not major. It was pretty much then I made a vow that I will not use this as a fetish no longer. If I have to be in diapers every now and then to feel like it is under control then I will do it in a way that does not cause myself physical or emotional harm.
Slowly I began wondering if this lifestyle is such a good idea and if it is any different than than a diaper fetish. Putting oneself in a child like state is not really the problem as much as it is the thought of wanting to be babied in role-play/age-play. Even that in itself is not the whole problem. It is the fact that what if it slips back into being a fetish.
I know a lot of you are ok with it being that way but the whole reason I started the age play was to make it an activity to allow myself to have a diaper on and control myself.
I would be fine with sleeping with a plush and when need be; talk to my plush. Using it as a way to comfort myself is not that big of a deal. It is the fact that I still want the ability to listen to the music I listen to and not think about what I am doing is wrong. If it was only the plush and having a feminine side minus the AB/DL it would be great. Trying to remove something that feels like its attached to me is not a task I have achieved yet. I have planned it but I am waiting for the right time in my life I can give it up. I have purged my diapers enough times to know all I am doing is wasting money and getting embarrassing doctor visits. Taking a deep breath I now ask;
Aside from my accident are any of you AB/DL to help control your sensual side?