I really don't like wearing diapers, it's annoying to have this disorder at the back of my mind so often, and I don't like feeling like a freak, or that I'm different from other people. It's also extremely frustrating to need to hide this disorder from others, and to secretly get into a diaper every few weeks just to get the need out of my system. I try to put it off as long as possible, until I just can't deny the urge. I thought that slowly wearing diapers less and less would help, but I've forced myself to throw away all my diapers and live without them for months at a time, and the urge still comes back, no matter how ashamed or upset with myself I am. Does anyone have any friends that have been able to kick this habit? I'm thinking of doing a sort of "psychological association" experiment where every time I can't deny the need to wear a diaper I'll put a needle in my thigh, or something similarly painful (but not too harmful) so I'll associate the pain with the diaper-wearing and eventually be able to kick the habit. Any help would be appreciated.