Last two days I had a purge, I threw all my Ab related items such as my pacifier, my baby bottles and my diapers. I do not know the exact reason for this event to occur to me. I just felt guilty over wearing diapers and regressing and everything else in my young adult life seems wobbling. I felt everything wrong of wearing diapers and being an AB. The image of me in diapers seems ugly and I do not find cute at this point. I ask myself this How old is too old to be in diapers playing baby ?. As much my inner self are in diapers with sippy cups, my older of me the meaner ones seem to overtake me.