In a fit of depression (the kind where I'm thinking 'this is stupid, WTF am I doing? I don't belong here') and probably coupled with buyer's guilt I was trying to get to sleep but kept dwelling on the negative aspects of this compulsion intruding into my life - the sneaking, not being able to wear 'openly', leaks, uncomfortable diapers, the disposal, getting the diapers, and not being able to come up with a valid reason if someone were to ask me why I felt the desire to wear. I made a tentative resolution to not buy any more diapers after I finished out everything in my stash which would take about 2 weeks.
Then I get up this morning and change into a Tena Ultra and start making plans to get the next bag of Attends to replace the current one that still has 1/3 remaining. This is the closest I've come to an actual purge, is anyone else that crazy to have their urges wildly fluctuate literally overnight?