I have successfully hid my alternative personality from everybody, but one person, in my life.
I was content to be a ADISC lurker, as Moo called it, but realize I need to jump into the water to continue. I only hope it is not too cold. Sorry for the length, but I was happy to just lurk.
Growing up in New England with three older sisters, I was always "the baby" of the family. I have worn diapers, off and on, since I was 13 years old, a long time ago in the pre internet, cloth dominant era. The concept of an adult diaper lover or an adult baby were non existent, but I knew I knew I loved wearing diapers and I loved drinking from baby bottles, the color pink and feeling that I was a baby girl. I didn’t know why but was sure these feelings were mine alone and needed to be kept secret.
During my teen years diapers were off and on thanks to living at home with parents and siblings around all the time and issues dealing with bulky cloth diapers. I was always a serious bed wetter and at 15 when my mother discovered I was wearing diapers and plastic pants, I panicked when she happily offered to wash them for me. In a fit of nervous embarrassment, my voice quivering, I said no, changed the subject and have regretted this missed opportunity for my entire life.
The next 13 years after high school, I married my high school sweetheart, joined the Navy, graduated from college, had two beautiful children and began my adult work life. My life in diapers was pretty much off during this time, but the feeling of being a baby girl in diapers was always there.
Then the dark ages faded away and computers and the internet appeared, like a bright light from the sky. I discovered the now defunct DPF (Diaper Pail Friends). Who knew other, possibly thousands, adult babies and diaper lovers were out there, all over the world, living alternative lives? (Thank you Tommy, whoever you were). I could now find diapers and plastic pants that fit much better than the Curity and Gerber real baby products I had been wearing and the adult baby and diaper lover in me was reborn.
Today, I am still married to the love of my life, my high school sweetheart, and soul mate. I couldn’t imagine my life without her. She has been aware and tolerant of my alternative baby life for years but, like the vast majority of people, has never understood why any adult would want to wear diapers, suck on a pacifier, nurse on a bottle and dress in adult baby clothes and I have never been able to give her an answer to that question.
Disposable diapers allow me to wear diapers every day without detection. My diaper of choice is Bambino and I wear one to bed every night and all day on Saturday and Sunday. Wearing a suit allows me to often wear a diaper under my clothes at work without detection. The expense of wearing a disposable diaper 24/7 caused me to look at alternatives. In a “you don’t suppose” moment in the baby diaper section at the super market, I bought a package of girls XL Goodnight pull on diapers. To my amazement, I was able to pull one up. Unfortunately, the capacity of a Goodnight pull up leaves a lot to be desired. After some experimentation, I determined that adding a moderate Total Dry booster to the Goodnight significantly increases the overall capacity and performance of the diaper. I now wear girls Goodnights with a booster every day to work. I usually wear them as underwear, needing their security from the “accidents” little girls can have before making it to the bathroom.
Beyond my AB/DL lifestyle, I am a big fan of the Red Sox, Patriots and Bruins. Consequently I am often found agonizing and twisted up in a fetal position on the sofa in front of my TV set.
I enjoy practically all genres of music, with a bit of a preference towards 70’s and 80’s country music and reading history books, as well as crime/mystery fiction.
I got my pilots license about 10 years ago and find nothing more satisfying than soaring through the sky in a Cessna while wearing a wet diaper. I have been an avid photographer for close to 40 years, preferring to photograph people in their everyday lives, but I also enjoy landscape and wildlife photography as well while traveling, hiking or kayaking.
I enjoy reading posts on AB/DL web sites, but find the posts on ADISC different, interesting, thought provoking and reasonable, considering this rather unreasonable behavior.. I am not looking for photos or videos. For me, being an adult baby girl is an emotional condition located within my imagination. I’ve seen the pictures, I’ve looked in the mirror and none of that adds to my baby world.
After living so many years in a secret desperation behind closed doors, I look forward to participating in conversations with other adult babies, diaper lovers and sissy’s on ADISC.