I hate pushy people and people who pressure you.
I am easily pressured and I get mad about it and then at myself for not being strong enough. A stranger once pressured me to go to a store with him to help him look for shoes and all he wanted was my money so he took my wallet while I was right there but luckily he didn't get much from me.
I have been pressured into having sex and I consider it rape.
I was also pressured into being someone's mommy and then when I decided to stand up for myself and be strong and not weak, he accuses me of being dishonest but he was actually being manipulative. So I make a angry note in my fetlife profile saying "I do not play mommy, I do not role play. If you are looking for a mommy, go somewhere else. I will not be your mommy. Don't even pester me to help you find one. If you want one, go post a thread about it on here or on a AB/DL forum. I am also free to change my mind and not play anymore if I do decide to play and I have every right to say no. Do not even try and manipulate me or the situation, I save PMs and IMs so think you can lie? Guess again." This was aimed at two people I had a recent incidents with and I didn't want to run into anymore so I put this in my profile.
It makes me angry people think if you say yes or give in, you wanted to do it and you let them have you do it. I wonder how stupid can they be?
This also puts me at high risk for crimes so I am glad people don't even bother me and I don't have any friends because I am less likely to be taken advantage of and going to jail. I don't even want people to know me or know I have this weakness or else they can just fuck with me.
Sales people are the worse, I hate them so I try and avoid them. I don't get many of their calls because I refuse to put my phone number down and only use my email. It's easier to just delete. I need to get strong and be rude and just hang up or just simply put the phone down and then they won't call me again after being on hold for too long or do what my dad does and say "Hey thanks for calling but I am not interested" and hang up before they say anything else.
I hate people who will not take no for an answer and I keep trying to be stronger so I won't be so vulnerable to being pressured. I am always proud when I do stick up for myself like ignoring a sales person in public. Even my ex boyfriend would try and pressure me and try and make me feel guilty so I would do what he wanted and I realize it was manipulation he was doing. They will play with your emotions by calling you selfish or saying you're self centered just so you will feel guilty and do it. But actually they are the ones being selfish.
I keep telling myself be strong.
Anyone else struggle with this or used to? Did you get better?
I am thinking I should just turn into a bitch if anyone tries to pressure me and have them think I have a terrible temper and I would rather be hated. Online I can just hit the block button if anyone pressures me.