I have a few reasons but number one is physical appearance. Im not small and im not big I got a good enough of a belly though. Thing is is when im in a diaper after the fun is over i just kinda pause look, and ask myself what the he am I doing. I do know if im bisexual or not because If a guy has a better looking body then me I picture him in a diaper and it gets me up. Same with girls. Could it just be the diaper aspect? But honestly I think I could accept myself if I was good looking and had a six pack. Like even most of the girls on here say they like the tough guys in diapers.
Second reason is I recently had a family member killed at mid age and me being part atheist and part Christian because i don't know what to believe (science or history), if i think of that member in heaven looking down i could not imagine what they could be thinking of me.
Thanks for all of your opinions and suggestions in advance!