So I joined back in June, and the community has been very good at helping me find my AB side. I don't post very much and I am not super active here, but that comes with the Job I have been growing into and the stresses of major relocation.
Its been a good few months for me and I have discovered pacifiers, stuffed animals and sleeping padded. I feel like I have found a good balance.This has made a world of difference for me, and I have become more well rested and just my quality of life has increased in general I think.
There is one down side to all this though, for money reasons my wife has to work in a different town that is a bit away. We're trying to get her up here but its been tough going. And we do budget( the money spent on ab/dl is left over saved change after all the bills are paid, which subsequently is only possible with the second income.)
This means that most of my exploration has been alone, and it shows. I have stated in other threads, that my wife was not very receptive to my ab/dl nature when I first told her. And she does seem to be becoming more and more supportive. But there is a major part of her that is fighting it.
Which leads to something else- me fighting it.
When we have been able to be together its been good and she has even started with some things that make me feel so little and happy... its literally the best feeling. But I find that in order to make her still happy that I am trying to maintain an adult control.
I am afraid if I completely let in she will loose all respect for me, but i want the ab stuff.
As usual I tend to be very long winded with getting to the point but here it is: I need some advice from every one
1 - Do you just give in? If she is willing to do little things here and there for me and let me be "little", do i just need to let it happen.
2 - How do i help her not feel like just a Mommy - while i want the love in that way, I still do things for her as an adult, but she still has very strong aversions towards this.
3 - I assume that letting go is the same as being alone and letting go. Is that the same thing i need to do with her?
4 - does anybody else feel this way?
BONUS!!!- What is your little like?- I am very happy and mischievous not in a bad way, but in an innocent kind of way. I love color!!!
omg omg omg here goes...