In the last couple weeks i managed to finaly accept this part of my self. Once i finaly found biblical evidence that this is not mentioned at all as a sin and that several verses, in context even, say that things the bible makes no mention of are far less important than the 2 most important things god asks of us: love him and one another. I ran this across a friend and biblical scholar in my independant baptist church, who agreed. It is amazing how much better i feel now. How hard was it to accept yourselfs for you? If you have not, what do you think you need? Just wanted to share the good news, one more of us has stopped bullying themselves. Feels nice. Next step: gaining some cofidence.