i know this sounds like a waste of space to post this on adisc but i eed to express my feelings to someone.
basically ihave been having depression ishues for a long time now. i have had a bad fucked up childhood as well. i ahave been to thehospital and al of that due to having depression.
tonight im feeling really bad. i have started to cut my fingers with a knife and im considering umping out the window as well. i dont even know why im depressed and i have been on the phone ith samaritans as well and they havent helped me at all.
so i appoligze if this sounds like arant but i have to say something somewhere.
i mean my heads all messed up and im confused and i dont know what to do and my feelings are all messed up as well.
i just dont what to do anymore as when i feel better and i think im getting over it boom it comes up with a vengeance.
im even onsidering ending my life by jumpig out the window or hanging yself or something.