Hello all! This isn't exactly a super "mature" topic, but I wasn't exactly sure where to put it so... here it is lol. So, I've been on this site for a good long while now, yet, I've failed to overcome a very longstanding problem....shyness. I should start out by saying that I'm not super shy in real life. I'm usually pretty careful to pick friends that are fairly open and accepting, so I make friends a tad slowly, but steadily, and I'd like to thing that I contribute a great deal to a conversation in general. However, on this site, I've never really felt like I could be as involved as I'd like to be, which is a shame, because I feel as though I'm not contributing anything a value by sticking around, and I really want to contribute!
This problem isn't totally limited to ADISC, as I often have the same issue on other forum based sites. It's as if some wave of fear and doubt rushes over me as soon as I think about replying to a thread, or making my own thread. I'm constantly battling with myself over each sentence that I've written, trying push through, but I wind up deleting a lot of what I've planned to post, or not even writing it at all, and it seems that only certain emotions (anger,sadness, fear) provide me with enough strength to defy my fears. Hell, I'm not even sure how I managed to post this! Maybe shyness isn't even the right word.... but I can't think of a better descriptor..... has anyone else experienced something similar? If so, how were able to beat it, and become as involved as you'd like to be in ADISC discussions? Really sorry if this winds up being a stupid/reptative thread!