I am looking forward to reading every ones posts and getting to know the community. I go back and forth with this and I know this will not go away. I love diapers and I think I always have. I had a few diapering experiences under ten years old or so and it apparently engrained it in my soul. Like most of you this is super secret and I intend to keep it that way. I was married but have been mostly single for a while. I am hoping to learn about new web sights and places I don't know about. So I pretty much just got back from searching my city for diapers. Rite Aide, Wallgreens, Safeway, and finally I went to Wallmart and bought a pack of medium Depends. I bought a 8 pack of paper towels to set on top of them in the cart. I have done this a few times before. It is pretty slick. It is a lot better than standing in line at the pharmacy. I have tried [ with sample packs] different diapers like ABU and Bambino. I like Depends because they have 6 tabs, all white, crinkle ok and if you look hard enough you can buy them at stores. All the stores anymore only sell pull ups or cloth backed diapers. I need to find the perfect diaper for me and buy a lot of them and order them online. I live in an apartment and have to do it by UPS so I can pick them up there. Any ideas? All white, super crinkle. Attends? I want to order this weekend before I lose my nerve. I am going to spend the whole weekend like this. I hope. Thanks.