I had hit a wall with not being able to stretch my imagination with my pony toys. I thought about giving AB/DL up several times. I looked around Amazon for a paci thinking I love me pinkie pie so much and I wanted to go further with her. I thought a paci would be it if I gave up all the other desires I had as an AB/DL. I ended up buying from Ebay. (Nuk 5)
I came home today and today is one of three days my home care comes. Me and my home care assistant are real good friends and even though she knows my baby side I still don't feel comfortable with her seeing this side of me yet. So in short I had to wait for her to leave.
As soon as she left I got my envelope that I got in the mail and opened it. At first I was A little scared to try it but then I sucked on the pacy and my pinkie pie in my arms and we are snuggling even now. I am not sure how I am supposed to suck my pacy but I am learning.
I can totally see myself breaking those mental barriers now. The only thing though is I am having trouble thinking of how I should play with my toys. As strange as this sounds my biggest problem is coming up with different ways to play with my toys. Have any of you had this problem?