Alright you guys caught me, I've been a lurker for a little while..however I can explain.
I found this site a while back while searching for more DL usage comments/reviews. After some digging I did get what I wanted to know, however I started to read more and more on the forums (reason for that soon) until one night I fell asleep while reading and the next day awoke and attempted to log back on and found that I was branded as a lurker (i guess the logged in for X amount of hours straight did it). My greatest apologizes, however in hindsight it was deserved because i actually was lurking.
What made me read more and more into the forums was well honestly my girlfriend for almost a year (was one week away from it to be exact) broke up with me. When she brought it all down on me I was broken. There was a lot more drama into it, but basically she dropped the bomb, and told me she was meeting this co-worker that she thought was pretty cool/nice/(whatever else you want to call it) at the park. Of course I was shattered and she left me in the parking lot just standing there...and shortly after sitting. She knew everything about me, including my DL-ism so it hurt all the more.
I started coming on here more often and reading, it helped me cope by a good amount. She was the only person I ever talked to about it, and she understood it and heck she even became a part of it (as a partner par-taker). And finding a place of people that openly talked about it, and reading the conversations eased my mind. And of course made me over all feel more confident about the whole thing (I've been a DL for about 6 years now, but I've been keeping it totally to myself except for a very select group of people, and none online).
That's my present life, again my apologizes for lurking for so long. If nothing else, maybe some of you can sympathize...I really wasn't feeling the urge to reach out to anyone for quite a while (and quite frankly I am somewhat nervous to even do this ).