Ok so here goes this is my first question for the community.
I have been dating a girl since March of this year. Things started out great and after a about 2 weeks to a month of dating I tell her about my AB side. I always try to get that out there fast because I know that some people will just never be ok with it. I feel like its just better to get that out there before either person starts to get too emotionally invested. So, she at first freaked out a little and when I explained to her that that was a part of who I was and that I would understand if that was a deal breaker she calmed down about the whole thing.
For the first month or so there after things were great she would cater to my AB side at night and diaper me, change me, read stories to me, give me bottles the whole nine yards. It was great and I started feeling like I had maybe found "the one". It was around this time we moved in together it wasn't necessarily what I wanted to do but she always wanted me around and didn't like when I would try to head back to my apartment in the evenings.
Shortly after that month though things started to go down hill. She stopped doing it as often and then she stopped altogether. I feel like there are certain things that I put up with to help make her happy. For example I'm not big on having animals in the house yet I was ok with letting her get a dog of which she got a breed that I dislike the most. She also has real bad anxiety and I do my best to help calm her down and cater to her when she needs it. We've talked about all this and there's more to it that I could say but essentially what it boils down to is I do a ton of little things around the house and for both of us. I just feel like she doesn't try to return the favor ever anymore.
I've started to wonder if it is because she has realized that she despises my AB tendencies. I know that I have started to resent her for not partaking in the activities with me anymore. The more I set around thinking about it the more I want to be with someone who I feel will understand me and who I can fully enjoy this side of myself with.
I hope I don't come off as sounding totally ridiculous. I'd just like some words of wisdom. Maybe I have went about this all wrong. It is kind of a touchy subject for me to discuss so I often times avoid talking to her about how I feel and that's largely due to the fact that by now we have had the conversation about 3 or 4 times and nothing ever changes. I feel like I should just shut up about it now.
I do feel like I am in love with this girl, but I just have grown tired of doing everything for her and getting nothing in return.