At times I think I just wanting things that will never happen. Everyone has told me for years that there is someone out there for me. I'm really wondering about that.
I feel like I'm just a reject. Somebody that no one rally wanted. Even my birth mother didn't want me. In fact I think she is a shamed of me,. The last time I talked to her, about 15 years ago, she has never told my half brothers and sisters that they do have an older brother.
I've been AB all my adult life. Having to hide it around my family because they are the types of people who think we are creepy. I'm getting real sick of hiding.
What is wrong with me that I can't be happy like most people. I see so many others that have been able to find some one to share the lives with but not me. Just what am I doing wrong. Is it my real age?
I have been so sick of this lately that I feel sick inside. Like someone squeezing my heart, That lonely felling deep inside. I'm a loving caring person who can't seem to find someone who wants to share my life. Why can't I find that.
I've been on other sites but all I attracted there where people who play head games. Had one Daddy, so I thought, that led me on for almost a month before telling me that he found AB's creepy. Those are the kind of people I've found on other sites.
Why can't I find some who is nice and would like to cuddle with me?
There are times that I even get sick of being AB. But that I can't change it is part of me. I'm a little boy in a big body.
I've made many friends here that we would like to get together but we live in different countries. That makes a little to no chance of us ever meeting.
I'm tired of feeling sick and alone and having to hide. I know there is a person out there who would really care I just having a problem finding that person.