Seems I'm good at helping other people but for got to take care the person that matters most me.
Don't get me wrong I have enjoyed helping people that is part of who I am. But there are times that I have taken advantaged . While others in my family are living the lives they choose to live, I'm stuck living a life others have chosen for me. ( Mainly I'm talking about my sister and younger brother) They get to go around with their face to face friends , while I'm stuck with cyber friends. Don't get me wrong I like everyone here I just need some face to face contact with people who share my interest.
There is the big problem. I'm up here in some old lumber Town in the middle of the pines here in lower northern Michigan. I have a better chance of meeting a black bear than meeting any AB/DL here. I don't think I'd try to diaper a bear or have one change my diaper.
Another problem is I won't drive because of the Epilepsy. I don't have seizures any more but I just won't take a chance of something happening.
I want so much to get out here and out of this state. Unless ny fair Godmother shows up I see little chance of anything changing in the near future at all. I feel helpless and afraid that this will be my life and it is not what I want.
I don't think I'm being selfish , I just want to be happy too.
Any advice is surely welcomed.