The thing with me is that I place myself in this destructive pattern in this desperate attempt to make friends. I go onto BDSM sites, talk to any seemingly normal individual, and then find that their not at all normal and more than less a complete and utter pervert that may have tendencies toward rape.
I latch onto these sites because someone always talks to me first, and for a split second it feels good to have someone WANT to talk to me. Even if that means they may be a raging douche later on.
I can't handle being alone in a world where I have zero friends due to social anxiety and my own hermit-ness. So how can I learn to like myself without the need of others? I'm trying to make friends..slowly but surely...but as most things in life its a process. So in the mean time of finding someone that I can carry a conversation with and doesn't mind talking to me...what can I do to feel less alone?
Also, I went onto sissykissy.com....its visually stunning but the community seems so off.