I've been gone for a few months, and before that I was gone for almost a year. When I last logged in around April I was in a very dark place which had only gotten worse with time. Now I'm getting back to a better mindset, and I think being around people on this particular site might encourage my revival in life.
I met some people on CollarMe and Fetlife that I should not have wasted time on. The majority were too extreme and unrealistic, others not relatable, and the rest just didn't spark anything in me. The latter of the three is going to be the hardest to ignore as he likes to make me feel bad for wanting to break up our friendship (which he views as more of an online relationship). I've tried to break it off with him 3 times, but felt too bad and just told him we can talk (AS FRIENDS!).
Anyway...I missed you guys. I remember this site kept me sane on days where I felt like the world was against me. It made me feel like I belonged somewhere, even if what I feel is right is considered taboo to the majority. And..no one here made me compromise who I was. I've felt like I've been compromising who I am for the sake of others for far too long and far too much now and I'm done.
I'm still not sure about several things about myself, and I've come to accept that I may never fully understand. But I'm glad that I have a place to turn to when the questions become too loud.