Although I log in and read all the threads here. I have been away from this forum for a long period of time. However I'm back now. I have been in and out of the purge cycle lately. This guilt trip of mine is bothering me , I can not seem to regress like I used to. I would put on a diaper and onesie and next minute I would have this guilt trip of mine, I would ask myself a series of questions. "Why would a young adult still wants to be in diapers". This question kept repeating in my head. To add to all that issues I had, my Gf just broke up with me for no apparent reason. Nothing is involved with diapers or my secret when I was with her, I did not have the courage to tell her too, that I have a fetish for diapers. Thus there is no way she could have known my secret or at least she could talk over it. We broke up over a text and I tried calling her and Inbox her phone but she did not return my calls nor my message. So after she left my urge to regress became more irresistible, but somehow I cannot regress like how I used to. There are nights where I would cry for reasons that I do not clearly understand. However sometimes you have to pick yourself up because there are nobody else but you to walk the road together.