I have no idea what I am going to write here if I am honest. I just need to let off some steam in front of people who get it!
I have long since accepted that this is part of who I am and I am totally comfortable with that. What I find difficult is that even though I accept it and see it as a normal part of me. Just as normal as what films I like, what music I like etc etc, I find it it frustrating that I can't share this part of me with ANYONE. Yes I can come on here and talk to people and I can go to other similar places but I can't sit and have a chat with someone in real life who understands.
Of course I eventually would love to meet a nice girl who will accept this part of me and will want to indulge in this ..well...fetish I guess. At the moment though I would give anything just to be able to be myself 100% with my friends without being judged.
I am a totally normal person who has a lot of friends, a good job, play in a band the only difference is that instead of liking girls in naughty lingerie I prefer them in nappies.
It's silly when you think about it, one little fact about my sexuality and it can make such a level headed person feel so alone.
For anyone reading this, I am not a depressive or anything, I'm generally a happy person. I guess wanting to satisfy this side of me just gets to me now and again.