Well I will start off by saying hello! A bit about myself and why im posting. I am very conflicted with my inner self recently. I decided over a year ago that I was going to give up trying to transition and stay a man. I cut off my hair -It was quite traumatic yes- But i found myself liking the more manly side of life for a while. I made this decision after i was cleared by an endocrinologist and my therapist for HRT. I also came out to my parents and friends as trans.
Now, after i have given up that side of myself i cannot help but feel depressed. I am at ends with this battle raging within my head about who i want to be. I try finding happiness in studying for school, but i find it increasingly harder and harder to socialize.
I don't know what I'm accomplishing with this, maybe some other people have dealt with the same thing? I just needed to get some of that off my chest.