Lately I've been stuck in this gruesome cycle where I really want diapers, I buy them, get really excited, then when I go to put them on, my guy parts also get very excited. Like to the point where I can't put a diaper on properly with them so erect. When I "relieve the pressure" (masturbating -_- ), everything returns back to minimal size. However, afterwards, I have lost all desire to put on the diaper or do anything related to wearing them or even go on websites like this. Afterwards, I just feel... well... pointless. I always thought that my desire for diapers and my ab desires were completely non-sexual as I have never correlated the two thoughts even unintentionally. Has anyone else dealt with this? I know I want to love diapers and wear them as often as possible but times like that, I just don't "feel" it.